Hey Friends, today's God's Girl is one I have yet to meet in person, but I feel as if we have been friends for years and years. I virtually met Rebecca Dikeman earlier this year in "Suzie Eller's Living Free Together Ministry." The connection was instamatic. Rebecca has a big heart and her passion is to pour His love and encouragement on other women. She is a lover of Jesus and I am thrilled to call her my friend. Please give Rebecca a big welcome to Casual Conversations.
“If only she’d known the plans He had for her . . . .”
That was my response to the question, “What would the first line of your autobiography read?”
If only I’d known the restoration, the family, the calling, and the life God had planned for me.
It struck me deeply. I suppose I referred to myself in the third-person because when looking back on my life, I feel like I’m seeing someone I hardly know. But God knew me — all of me — and the plans He was making in the middle of my mess.
“I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)”
I have a long history of self-doubt and fearing failure. The world said my worth came from external beauty, which chained me to years of Bulimia. The enemy whispered that all my failures and sins were counted against me in the eyes of a holy and righteous God. That turned into an unhealthy fear of God, and a bigger lie that I wasn’t useful for His purposes.
I wasted most of my life thinking my purpose was little more than trying to live up to unrealistic expectations — including God’s.
Then, God called me.
I didn’t audibly hear God’s voice, but I felt Him speaking directly into my heart.
He said, “Give me your whole heart, and I will show you a new way.”
When I felt God’s calling to write, I’d just come out of a very dark time. Relationships had fallen apart and life was more stressful than ever. But God had also been preparing me. I was spiritually and emotionally stronger than I’d ever been. Little acts of obedience brought me to that place; saying no to ways I knew were wrong, and yes to God no matter the cost. I had also been learning to listen to God’s voice above the negative voices in my life (including my own).
My passions became purpose-filled and I began to see the plan He’d woven throughout my entire life.
But it was more than just God calling me; my heart was willing!
My life verse has become Romans 8:28.
“We know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. (NIV)”
Satan wanted me to believe my life was falling apart, but it was simply falling into the place God was preparing all along. I just needed to start seeing it!
When we learn to see the work God’s doing through all circumstances (past, present, and future), we see the perfect tapestry He is weaving (with the good, the bad, and the imperfect).
God doesn’t desire that we choose some of the things we do, but He absolutely plans to use them for us, not against us.
The mistakes and sins of my past were suddenly great testimonies of transformation. The struggles I’d faced were stepping stones of strength. My passion became to glorify Him. My gifts became the tools to serve Him.
I saw my life in the eyes of the Lord, and what was darkness, became light!
“Everything exposed by the light … becomes a light…. (Eph. 5:13 NIV)”
God has always known His plans for me, and He is faithfully working all things for my good and His glory. I wish I would have learned to seek and trust His will earlier in life. But He is faithful, even when we are not.
It’s never too late to find God’s calling in your life. Look back at all He’s rescued you from. Look at the present struggles He’s leading you through. Look ahead with hope in the promises He’s made.
Look at the larger tapestry of your life, and see God working all of it together, for your good.
• What are your passions? Surrender them to His will.
• What are your past mistakes or sins? Accept His grace and trust that He will use them as a powerful testimony.
• How can you begin serving the world around you for God’s glory?
Fall in love with His perfect plans for you. They are good!
I’m re-writing the first line of my future autobiography. It will read, “I never knew the plans He had for me, but they’re beyond my wildest dreams!”