“He stood up and said to them, “Let him who is without sin among you be the first to throw a stone at her.” John 8:7
"You’re guilty but you’re not condemned.
Whatever you’re caught in, I make you free.
Whatever you’re accused of, I hand you keys.
Whatever you’re judged at, I give you release.
In the midst of trials, Jesus guarantees the best trial outcome:
you’re guilty but you get no condemnation." Ann Voskamp
There is a part of me that carries a deep scar. A heartache other women have but do not share.
I was reckless and careless, and my choices lead to a permanent life direction.
A choice that crumbled my heart and placed distance in my faith.
There it was, staring back at me: A pink line, which in other circumstances of life is intended for happiness and celebration, but for me, it poured in fear and hopelessness.
Panic seeped in, and the walls of life started crumbling down.
How could an 18-year-old; daughter of a preacher be pregnant?
What would people say?
What would people think?
Aloneness swept in like a raging storm.
There wasn't a God revelation or scripture that came to mind. I had walk away from that life way before the pink line.
I was scared; I was alone. Only one action seemed to fit my life choices at the time.
So I thought.
I had my firstborn baby, a girl, four years later and I understood how precious life truly is. God's precious, perfect creation.
"Before I formed you in the womb I knew[a] you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.” Jeremiah 1:5 (NIV)
Once again, the walls started to crumble down.
I continued to live in the sinking sand of sadness and a fractured spirit.
Longing Freedom. Release.
How do you remove the chain-shame of Satan who so desperately wanted me to carry the lie to the grave so God would never free me or redeem me?
He wanted me to stay in the deepest, darkest depths of sorrow. The liar wanted me to stay handcuff to the emotions of unworthiness.
Christ. The cross. Being Crucified for my release. Bleeding away my pain and shame.
His Love-Christ of freedom.
"Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound that saved a wretch like me. I once was lost but now I am found. Was blind but now I see." John Newton
Rebuilding the wall of worthiness.
My soul and my life were resurrected and reconstructed by the love-blood of the Lamb.
Oh, the sweet love of Jesus.
The key of the Cross set me free.
The Christ-Cross undid my shame.
The Christ-Cross removed the pain.
Forgiveness of our Freedom-Redeemer washed my old self away.
New Promise. New Purpose.
Stamped, sealed, and saved by His goodness and His amazing grace.
Jesus died on the cross to undo the sin, to undo the shame.
To set me free.
Shame is Silenced.
Sisters, have you walked in my shoes?
Have your walls crumbled all over you?
Does shame silence your pain?
Do you want to be set free?
Do the shackles of fear grip your heart to heal?
The "what if's" if someone finds out the truth of your gnawing thoughts which swarm the shame in your brain.
I understand that fear. I truly do.
You are unable to move forward in your faith due to the heaviness of the sadness of your fractured heart.
Oh, Sweet Sister, the Redeemer is holding out His hand to walk you to His path of love for release and restoration.
To still the storms for God to restore.
Let the Love wash away the darkness that continues to encircle you.
Fly in the freedom of His amazing grace.
For the glory of God's amazing grace will set you free.
Fly in His Freedom of the Cross of Christ.
Trust me; beauty comes from the darkness.
Blooming of life comes from death.
Will I allow God to transform my pain through His love and grace?
Will I allow God's glory to use my choice for His goodness?
Will I share my past for future hope?
Join me next week for part two of my story and find out how the Light of Life bloomed goodness out of darkness.
This Thursday, May 4th I will do a live FB video chat at 7:30 PM. Will you join me? The grace of God will pour out on Thursday night. I promise. Love you.
P.S. I will show you May's giveaway during the live video chat.